Poetry

Love Touch

2011-08-16T18:19:00.000-07:00

Love is so kind, I remember those times were i believe and become so blind. Love can hurt or damage as some like to say. But the question is... Do you like the feeling of love running through your system?. I say, Who cares what people say or think. We have a heart we should share and spread the love. Some people don't realize the good and bad need love can do to us. It can change us from worst to better, From better to worst. It all depends on who the person is. I remember... I remember being young as i'm still am. And believeing every little single word a guy will say out from his mouth, Of course!. I didn't have experiences at that age i was. But, Let me ask you a question?, If i may... Does love has a age? Or distance??. Of course not!. For my young age, I myself experienced a lot of things and know somewhat. But; The thing is, Love has no "Age'' Or ''Miles'' It all goes and depends the heart. How fast it goes, How many miles it's willing to take or how young or old the love could be. I had my first love at age 15 and may i say it was a roller coaster. It had it's ''Up''and ''Downs'' I really wasn't a fan of that. As i shall say, That relationship tought me well and not to give in nor believe too quickly. We all have our here and there few tears from our pain but that just makes us stronger, Not weaker!. I shall reminder you, Power comes from the mind not the strength in our bodies. As magicians say ''Mind Control'' It's magic!. Well in this occasion love is not ''Magic'' It could be, If we believe; but! We only believe if our relationship is ''Perfect!'' As what some may say when were ''In Love'' That's nothing wrong, It's nature. Don't blame others nor yourself. Love is nature and pure and sometimes we ALL just need that ''Love Touch''.

Sign

2010-01-01T13:42:00.000-08:00

As i say these things to you i want you to know that im glad your a part in my life.
thank you for the laugh's you made me had, thanks for the smile you put in my face.
Thank you for loving me with your heart and trusting me with beyond.
i knew that god had spoken to me when i saw you and you holding me but everytime your gone i feel lost without a reason to be told.
when i cry, its a sign that i want you to see, when i say i love you its a sign i want you to hear.
when im angry its a sign i want you to comprehend and understand that things in life its hard without a little push.
Knowing that your there for me its enough and all i need.
Nothing can replace you or be you and knowing that your that guy its amazing.
Looking into your eye's its like being lost in the skyes. and no im not saying this to say it its a sign i want you to know.
if you see a sign make sure you understand it well.
but beyond all this..this is a sign of love from me to you.

Remembering

2010-01-01T13:40:00.000-08:00

I remember when i lost something good and special i realized it was real sometimes words can hurt more than what you think you just never know it pains more then needles pains more than a cut from a mirror family and friends can go but love will stay in my heart for as long as i live if i fade away my colors will fall but memories will never fade its a book of memories just wishing to rip it apart cause it hurts reading it and seeing everything go over and over again like some time box. i sit in a corner looking at those pic and knowing that it was just a week ago and that now i cant go back cause the damages has been done and no crossing over cause it wont be the same my pain for you is real then you think and my love for you is stronger then what you think and my fight for you is like a war in blood that wont stop till i win and be tough and fight for what i believe in. just never mind about my god damn life i got hurt so what ! it will happen again anyways ill fight one more time but i aint going back not even for you im sorry but im moving on sorry if it hurts i know how it feels i been there and its really dark there and cold no one around to help you but your self and god just believe in your self and have faith and once your done you'll be good as me in life. im not perfect but i know what to do when is comes down to real things and trust and life i deal with my shit not others i aint no shit picker up im me and ima stay that way.

My lovely husband

2010-01-01T13:38:00.000-08:00

This is for a really special guy that i love and adore all i got to say thanks for loving me and caring for me like you do i am and always be yours ill fight for you till the day i die my dreams came ture your my life and much more i would never leave you im your wife and you my lovely husband just pray with me you healed my pain and scars and i thank you for that your more important then school your my blood that runs through my veins.
your my angel that puts me to sleep late at night you the reason for the smile on my face, your the reason why i wake up the morning with a smile on my face i can sing your name out loud and make the wind blow and the birds sing i can hug you and say i love you but everything eles to me is nothing but just a image with you its -TRUE LIFE- i can feel your love and your voice pressed aganist mines i think about you late at night when the moons up, i see your pretty face late at night,i see your heart shinying from miles apart.
Baby in this world is no world your my world,My life,My heart,My love, my everything your just more then what you think you are i can flap my wings and fly but i wont fly if its not with you god just made me realize i left something behide and it was you i wont compare my past with this. this is a gift from god and baby if our wish and dreams comes true it will be to late cause it already came true to me and you. side by side, loving eachother till death, hands on hands, and thoughts on thoughts and you and me together till the day we die baby i can whisper 3 words in your ear 'I LOVE YOU' and make it sounds like music in your ears.

My feelings about life

2010-01-01T13:36:00.000-08:00

In my mind I see life in different ways i see it as you throwing it away and choosing it but life is not all about fame and game is has and always been about hate and fate but what would life be without hate and fate? (Nothing). Sometimes life can be cruel and a bit cold but as I say all of this my heart beats it self like a drum as my words are being Shattered. God only gives us one life and a second chance but I can feel that im still Re-covering from that accident from many years (Or should I say just a bit few). Like books say "Thou shall not let fear or broken bones be an end". Our life can be like a tear in our tip of our fingers and when it drops it makes a sound you shall never forget. A broken bone is like broken dreams. If I shall live for today I shall wait for what's coming next. If I die today my number one on my list is to write a letter and say Goodbye. Life cannot be count because life is like money you already had been spent. Life can sometimes be tasty like if you were in a bar tasting all kinds of drinks. This is all about my feelings and this is not a treat to make you free.

Mad in love with you

2010-01-01T13:31:00.000-08:00

This sweet love is like falling through the skyes and waiting to be hold.
I look into your eye's and i see passion.
Baby i dont want to be alone never a "Goodbye" just a "I love you".
When you hold me up close i can feel everything but hate.
baby just hold me tight and dont let me fall or die. i want to be your wife till the day i die i survive and im here again just giving love and life a second chance and it turned out Great like i pictured it.
Bitterness is like heaven just waiting to be called and loved.
When i hear your voice i get chill's going down my back all i can say is im mad in love with you and this couldn't be more precious to me.
When you say "I love you too" it makes me want to cry.
Baby i dont want to lose you hopefully you will be my one and only husband.
Cross and wrap your arms around me and take me to wonderland and let's kiss and say "I love you too".
Your kisses is like having rain falling down on my lips is sweet like candy and beautiful like the stars you see late at night.
im so mad in love with you that not even god can explain it to you.
i close my eye's and hear your breath.
your hugs are warm and safe i can get lost in your arms and never come out i would be better safe in your heart and never be broken apart.
when i go to sleep tuck me in bed and give me a goodnight kiss.
when i cry i sure do know you know how to chear me up.
Dont leave cause our dreams has just started.
Dont leap or fall cause i will be here waiting for you and with my wings we can fly and make love.
Hug me and dont let me go, watch me sleep as the angels are calling for us.
Sleep together and have amazing nights.
Watch for the sign's cause im mad in love with you.
watch you sleep and its like a little angel.
Call my name ill come running never be late your lips pressed against mines is like looking at the ocean during sunset.
Stay with me stay with me
let me cry and show you i do care and love you.i will love you slow and deeply.
Im so mad in love with you im so mad in love with you im so mad in love with you.
Follow to my heart beats and let's see where will it takes us.
Run your fingers down my hair and make me feel special.
your voice run's down my spine as i say "I love you"
carefully we will go more and more and see what's (NEXT)
baby i just want to let you know one more thing im deeply mad in love with you.

Kill me

2010-01-01T13:27:00.000-08:00

Your watching me fall your hearing me cry your feeling my pain
But your aint feeling my love your watching me die slowly into my grave without a goodbye my tears are like waterfalls they fall everytime i talk to you
My heart beats to every sounds of your voice My brain goes off when i feel pain My tongue is feeling your fear from the tip of my tongue
i can ask question but to afraid to ask i need answer but to scared to hear them im running but still cant move
i feel you coming but im still here im in a box trap with no air no oxygen no sun
Your watching me suffer but yet your not helping me Your hearing me in pain but yet not calming me down your feeling my tears but yet cant control it
i hear your foots step but i just cant see you here im a blank of paper waiting to be used and tell a story
im human but i dont feel human
KILL ME NOW !
dont hurt me pain is worts then stabing me throw my heart you've done it before just do it this time im already falling apart without a reason
im fadeing with your memories im holding them tight
i looked up to you but now i look up to the skyes and pray i wont fall
you hear me saying 'I LOVE YOU' but no action
your warmth heart has touched mine
Oh! mine how can i get you to understand that 'I LOVE YOU' no matter what im guessing im not the one
Your always saying its your fault when its not
i always put you number one in my life not number five
i take a deep breathe and count to ten but its a waits of time cause im dead already from your love
you cant trust me,you dont love me,you hate me,your pushing me away,
im alone with no love or care
Just kill me like my brain 'SHUT DOWN'
Hit me and beat me down i dont care you've done more then that nothing can hurt me now but your 'Pain'
i feel persure i feel hated i feel unloved i feel destroyed
Kill me and you'll be much better without me
Kill me now Kill me now Kill me now!
watch me die watch me go into my grave without a goodbye
kiss me but i dont need one
kill me
you already killed my heart so its nothing hard but to kill me
*SHOOT* the gun bullets in my skull
its stuck but to late dont save me cause i aint coming back
kill me kill me
watch me die without a goodbye.

For you

2010-01-01T13:25:00.000-08:00

if i feel sad or lonely i think of you
when im crying or when im in pain i think of you
your the one that cleans my tears when they fall
you understand me when i say i cant no more. you listen to my heart and words when i speak.
i let the air past through me like glass for you i will go to war and fight for you i will die and say im not scared of being in love.
for you i will go to hell and make the world a better place just to hear you say "I LOVE YOU"
for you i will cross the mountain and ocean just to see your face.
for you i will climb the bad just to feel your touch.
i could be your sun above your skyes and be that sprakle light that shines in your eye's.
you hold my heart in your hands.
your so beautiful that wakes my skin up and have a smile on my face when i hear you sing.
when you look into my eye's my heart melts away like snow melting in the sun.
when you kiss me i feel like is you and i and nothing above us.
Nothing to hide or fear about.
when i hear you cry i feel like the world is gonna end cause your my world that's making my life shine like a shooting star.
when i close my eye's i could hear the air past by me with no harm for you i will lie and say im not scared.
for you i will give up my life just to see you shine late at night for you i will say im bad so they wont see how great you are.
babe in this world i will do anything just to prove you that your the one if i cant prove it in words maybe i could show you in blood and fight's
for you i will do this just to see you happy and with a smile on your face.
for you i will do anything that's need to be done.

Empty

2010-01-01T13:24:00.000-08:00

As i speak out loud and close my eye's i can feel that paint hat hunted me through day and night.
As i see a shiny light glow in the dark i can feel that l've gone Empty through thick and thin.
Something whispers in my ear's while i fall asleep.i can feel the cold but never be hold. i can hear but never be here.i can feel but never been healed.
All i can see and hear is Emptyness in life that drift me away from right and wrong

Dont

2010-01-01T13:20:00.000-08:00

Dont commit things but yet you never commiting into having a relationship why is that when i always tell you something you run away with what you wanna believe
i dont blame you if your scared but thats why im here to help and make you understand that what happen in the past will stay in the past dont believe and dont think about it
it wont come back unless you think about it im a kid but your a baby that's something different you have a lot of things to learn about but i already know them
If i were you i would forget about everything and start seeing on the outside and see different things not the past But people might say that your gonna get hurt anyways and crazy things but if you believe that your ready and your falling in love let that magic happen and its your life and future not there's
i've gotten hurt so many times but yet you still see me here having a great life and soulmate but unlike you your just lonely and sad dont be you'll see the first person to walk by will love you no matter what follow your dreams and heart and you will feel and see different
i can see that people are scared to date again cause they dont wanna get hurt but the key to find someone special is to get hurt over and over again till you see that special someone that's how i found that special someone you dont unlock it till your ready mines been unlock for a few and im happy and not worrying if ima get hurt cause i trust the person and love them no matter what
i can charge you with things but not on money i dont get paid for being me i get loved for showing and being who i am that's like money to me cause once your life you'll feel special and feel loved will that's how i feel right about now i know sometimes you will have breaks down everyone does but still it doesn's fills that part where you should breakup with the person only cause you had a break down
it dont make sense its like saying "water and vinger" you dont mix it, well dont mix breaks down with your partner there not the problem you are people say that the only way to forget about pain is doing drugs and weed well to tell you the truth is doesn't it make you for get about it, it makes you think about even more and then you end up doing something stupid which no one would like that not only me but also your family and friends
dont do thing's that you say you will never regret but in the end you end up regreting it.

Broken

2010-01-01T13:16:00.000-08:00

the years has gone by the days i've cryed the pain i hide the wounds of my heart
The bullet that strike me right in the center of my heart
the air i breathe the nights that i've lost emotion The cuts i've done the past has been buried but beside that what eles has been buried
the light of love the sunshine of carying everything looks like slow motion to me am i in a travel machine am i going back and forth
the pain i costed it wont be lies i got to face the truth for once and for all
take a picture dont make it loud Slient is like dieing with out water
My heart is black from all the pain and hurtfulness you've had done to me
Broken glass is like broken mirrors i hate that mirror is trying to make do something i dont wanna do
i wanna die its not like if its gonna hurt i been through harder than that nothing could be worst Than dieing
the love i shared with you but i never received mine the thoughtful things you used to say but now there gone like air has flown by
the laugh you did was nice but still sad im so tired of living the same life over and over again i aint trying out for no game
i want my gift from god you were my present till i lost you Now i've got the last words
i know you love me but theres nothing eles for me to do the war end and so must i
Broken glass can go through me like nothing it wont hurt me you've cost me more pain then ever broken glass is better and easier then real pain costed by you
you were my hero but now your just trash dont make a sound im here
But when im gone you must leave me i rest in peace from all your drama no more mistakes
my life has started broken mirrors broken glass, broken promises,and broken wishes
i wish everyting to be how they used to be but i guess it only happens in movies
Oh how i wonder how would it be with out you
But i must leave
i can go far with out you
i dont need you
Broken memoriesBroken thoughts Broken heartsAnd broken honesty.

Wishes

2010-01-01T13:14:00.000-08:00

i blow my candles i close my eyes i wish for something
your my gift and you here to stay.
wishes are the best but becareful what you wish for cause it might come ture.
No money in my pocket and no thoughts in my mind
My soul is emptyMy heart is warm
i wish for my life not to end.
it started bad but now i want finish it no matter what.
wishes is like money dont spend it on something that is not worth it.
i claim on rights not for wrongs
a pond of water is like a pond of tears
i suffer late at night worrying if my life will end soon.
i wish for everything would just pause ([])
*take a deep breathe**memories**thoughts**pain**Love**damage**Hate**Death*
wishes can sometimes be wrong you never know what might happen.
it tricks your mind not only yours but for me too as well.
Posion eye's and posion love
can you fear it?can you feel it?
sometimes wishes can go against you like enemys
fight me now and your wish just came true.
look upon all this
what do you see?
i see me,my family all togethere and i also see hate and love.
can you see it?
wishes is mostly confusing not only for me but also for you and others.

Secret

2010-01-01T13:11:00.000-08:00

as i sit down and read this poem and let you know how i really feel
does it bother you?do you really care what's on my mind
i sit in my window looking unpon the skyes and i see your name written across the sky and i wonder would it ever be mine.
as i take this glass of wine i can make it fine im not trying to posion you im just trying to make you realize.
i left everything behide like it was nothing of mine
i lost my missing heart.i dont hear it beat and i dont feel it i can see it in your eye's your torrify.
your like a lost soul waiting to be hold
i can feel your heat when i look into your eye's its like looking to the skyes i can taste you sweet fears but no tears
my love is like war when im trying to break the door
i know you hear me screaming but you cant see me.i lock the door but its not enough.
i leave my fingerprints so you can track when you done dont leave a mess i might be found.
i have a secret i know you wanna hear it but you might be scared you cry i see no tears its all fake like no fame
i have a secret but its lock only you can unlock when the war is done so you can read my heart
lets fly now,let's not die now, its to soon to go byebye now
see you in my world sooner or later as if i care
i turn around i close my eye's i make 3wishes but its all gone i dont need candel or water i might just choke on water and die i got a secret and i know your's.
wanna know what's yours?
trying to find out mines
trying to be like a rat
my secret is HUGE ! my secret is WOW ! would you just die.
dont cry you might just die
count your step you might just fall
dont look back i might just scare you
My secret is my kingdom but will you realize my time there's no turning back you made my time so let's just face the time cause anyway's today we all might die and not come back.

Reason

2010-01-01T13:08:00.000-08:00

The reason for me to hide is cause of you the reason for me to cry is cause of you the reason for me to run is cause of you
i want this relationship to last but something is not right i need a sign or a signal telling me your the one
im giving you chance's and space but is not working you say you dont wanna lose me but your starting to im in pain cause of you, i cry cause of you i hate you because i love you i dont need you because i have you i dont love you because im in love with you
you touched my heart and life many ways that i just cant explain my tears for you are real and my pain for you is war my blood for you is death ill die for you but im not sure that you will for me
Prove me that you want me prove to me that you love me prove to me that you want me to stay and never leave
Hold me up close and whisper in my ear and tell me "Baby dont leave me"
How can i tell you things when your never there to hear it you left me with no words in my mouth i cant breathe cause you taken all my space
i have no clue what you are but my mind tells me you dont want me you lie to me and i take it i hate it but there's nothing for me to do i hate my self for falling in love next time is a goodbye
my train is waiting so i must leave since im not important to you i knew it from the start it was just a trash
Dont hold me dont love me dont miss me dont come dont need you
i regret doing this cause my life is not in shape to be fixed and it wont be fixed
look into my eye's and tell me to leave
ill look into your eye's and i see nothing but an empty soul
Pick your self up and leave
sick of the lies and sick of the attitudes
all of this is the reason why i love you and dont love you.

My life

2010-01-01T13:07:00.000-08:00

My life is nothing right now i dont need people judging my life only because im not living it good
My life is perfect just the way it is i dont care what you say you can save your drama in a memory card and have fun judging other's but not on me
people live there life how they want to live it is not up to you to tell them how they should live it live your's and leave other's alone and mine also
life has different history and it depends on how you make it and live it mine has a lot of history but let just leave that for a story teller
if you believe in your self and god you will see that life is calm and relaxing but you have to put in faith and just think all positive no negative things

My feeling

2010-01-01T13:05:00.000-08:00

Am i crazy? im in some kind of track that i dont even know or where im gonna stop at im like lost in the woods with no sign of anything lm pretty sure im the only person who is alive and proud im am not gonna stop till i find what looking for my feelings is not a game or a funeral its called real life thats something you might not know my feelings sometimes can transform into a imagenation or real i can feel the heat but yet i wont get burn i see the pain but cant go through me lm like wooded door.

i feel your fresh blood against mines is like heaven My feeling is not to played with this is not final destination unless you want it to be i can play starz wars but yet i still wont win this is not final fantasy this is the end of my life
My feeling is like being hypotized all over again maybe like bein killed but being alive but My feeling is not againts no one it doesn't bite or kills no one unless you try to hurt me or betray me im not a hallowood star but in heaven im a star no matter what you say you wont hurt me.
My feeling could be a battlefield but at the same time it feels like 300 miles Non-stop just waiting to go and be green all the time i see the light but cant reach it i hear the sounds but yet cant find it i read the tracks but no way to go or how to go.
The police saw my body prints in a road they try to find the killer but it was to late i might be in heaven now but as long as im in earth nothing matter's but my feelings and importances.

Lost thought's

2010-01-01T13:03:00.000-08:00

Lost is like being unable to do things to have things or to wish for things more like lost thoughts (Have you ever been in a room that's cold and quite?) well that's how lost thoughts feel. the evil has been lifted and the good has gone dont wait for that moment to come make it happen and make it real dont die just let the pain flow and wind blow

my names blows while the birds sings the air is sweet like fresh water open is like open mind and heart let my words speak to you lost thoughts can be like a dream sometimes you might not see what's around you but i fight when the war is big NOT ! small if i get pulled away i might see it like a waist of time Lost thoughts can be a BIG plate of food waiting to be done if i ever

had my thoughts lost -Yes- just trouble on my way to things and goals but if i ever see god i might just wish for my thoughts to be comprehend and not ignored i just need support from friends and family but that's not enough i need STRENGTH which i might find it one day Lost thoughts can be very dangerous sometimes just watch out you never know it could be here or

tomarrow you never know its like a tornado waiting to bring down the world and innocent people's that haven't had done crimes or robbery lost thoughts can be like a boat you fail you sink and die that's if your not a swimer but if you are your in luck you have another chance in life but as for others better watch out for those lost thougts its on track and time -CLICK CLICK- i feel it on the way.

It's over

2010-01-01T13:01:00.000-08:00

My words dont mean nothing to you My tears means shit to you My love for you means less then nothing
it's over im not running im not hideing, im not crying im not fighting
your ambitious to do things but your never going to do it unless your up for it im not going to fight for you or cry for you when you say you need me i feel like my heart has been pulled away,when you say you love me i know your not telling me the truth.
it's over im not going to pretend like it doesn't hurt when it does im not a diamond to been spend like money im not your Ex girlfriend and im not here to harm you im just afraid you might see it as death and bad.
im over the mountain but parently your not i wish for this to be a battle cause i know in the end i will lose no matter how hard i try or listen the evil will eat me inside out and leave me with no organs.
now ill pray that i wont step on glass and bleed cause my life will just flud away with blood and tears the scars you made will never be re-coverd its here to stay and take me to anothere site of the world where ill be free and touch the skies
No im not you No im not her No im not what you think i am
im me just hurt and needless im just scared you might fall and died but why should i care? but i do cause i love you and always have just look into my eye's and you will find your destiny and the road where you will find me as your angel.
its over now
No more worryness No more fire No more tears or blood and no more of me
its over as i should say
it's over for me this is my stop
it's over.

Feelings

2010-01-01T13:00:00.000-08:00

You see the sun and that sparkle light that shine late at night and you wonder if it would be yours.Don’t wait for that moment to come make it real and make it as your dream come true. Breeze through the air and water like the ocean that floats off from our soul and heart and we wonder if we would ever die.I can think and read while im being broken into pieces apart (No I cannot be repaired) im not a toy im human with a great soul.Look at me and tell me if I would ever be yours? Im like a treasure waiting to be found im lost like the signs you see at night im like an owl I can see in the dark and not realize Im alive You’re my lucky skies that shines when im blue your that song that putt's me to sleep at night and make me fall in love with you and not realize its just in my head.
Take my hand and care for my heart cause once im out it wont be the same cause im just in it to win it not to lose you and make me want to die and say things that are not naturally true.
Wish for me and ill wish for you as my one and only charm.

Emotion

2010-01-01T12:58:00.000-08:00

in a world so cold in a dark place and a lost soul not meant to be found.
i stand there as i let my emotion out. i can feel the air trying to push me out of that fear.
One beat,too tears,one heart are not meant to be broken apart.
Wishes are being drifted away as my feet are still standing on the ground.
i can feel my emotion go through my spine feeling like im running out of time and i'll show you what i've got to shine.

Deeper

2010-01-01T12:57:00.000-08:00

My love has grown deeper and deeper it has more caring and loving then ever My eyes are wide this time.
When i think of you my mind goes on a road trip far away from here just having some time to think about life and family.
without you is like an unslove puzzle with no trace of clue or nothing i wonder late at night if the evil is gonna eat me alive if they do where would they start?
My passion is in your eyes nothing but that is just thought's but i wonder what you think late at night do you think of me or something eles?
My god has all the right to say anything but not about you.i can go days and days wondering in the woods but i would never find what im looking for its too far away from where im standing at.
My mind is lock once you open it you can never close it again.i've tryed passing through all the bad times but it just comes back to me somehow.My dream are fully deep.
i cant not hear while im alseep you might try to steal from me but you will never will unless i give you a chance which i think i wont..
My ears are full of sand i cant hear a word you saying its just lies.
this is not resident evil is something more than that my thought's for has grown deeper and deeper.
once i've entered in your mind there's nothing for me to do besides loving it and sharing it with you.
your special in many different ways if you let me tell you. you would understand this much better my life has grown bigger and deeper ever since you walked in my life i dont see my self walking out a place without you.
that is how life is no matter what once you brought it. it will stay like that no matter what.i've tryed and still in the same example.
years fly by really fast just make sure to grab your partner and never let them go no matter what. love is war, and war is fight.

As i

2010-01-01T12:56:00.000-08:00

As i lay down dying My mouth is being stapled so i wont speak my mind
out the wind i lost control i lose focuse and i cant concertrate i blow your name but no reponse
i close my eye's while the bad are gone i ask my self if i would you leave you 'No'How come? 'Cause i love you'
you have to understand that life suck's no matter how hard you try
Just take my hand and ill show you who i am dont lose track cause i aint helping you
My mind is saying no and my heart says go
which one should i go?
to rows and no one works no services or nothing just dark and alone
As i lay down 'i think do i even wanna be here'?Do i wanna keep up with the mission and win or just gave up and lose?
in my case losing is better then trying cause either way you end up with thoughts on your mind -Unquestioned-
'But i remembered something' what you have in the beginning turns out good and fun and when you start losing track you lose and end up being apart from eachother
i dont see the reason for me to run but if i sit down and tell you a story you will see that i definitely have the -BIGGEST-reason to do or say what i feel
As i talk to you my mood goes to Happy to scared and sad just PLEASE dont ever do what im doing cause you will regret it in the future or later
As i stand up looking to ceiling i see a response from god telling me to come i see the light and i feel calm
As i say 'I LOVE YOU' my heart beats to those words
My blood forms in different directions and it gets warm when i hear you 'CRY' or 'SAD'
As i say 'GOODBYE' i feel your pain and love.

What happen

2009-06-15T18:32:00.001-07:00

i dont know what i want anymore cause what happen if i die the day tomorrow what's gonna happen?will i lose you?will i lose everything?what happen if we break up?can we still be friends?but theres something in me telling me that your not to good enough for me that your not worth it is it true or false?if i lose you i'll be nothing in this world but i dnt know what i want cause it's like if im hearing voiceses in my head that's driveing me crazy what happen's if i cant take it anymore will i still be me?what happen's if i lose my best friend over something stupid but all im saying is what happen's after all of this?

Nervous

2009-06-01T14:22:00.000-07:00

Everytime your not around i get worry and nervous when im with you i get butterflies in my stomach and sometimes i get nervous when you call me cause at that moment i dont know what to say when you tell me you love me and you wanna be with me for the rest of your life i get nervous when you call me with good news i get butterflies in my stomach and i also get nervous cause i dont know were is the place your taking me or what we gonna do on that day that is only me and you i will have butterflies in me cause to me it means what you set up for us it's beautiful or what your telling me is beautiful i love the way your so kind,sweet,nice,respectful, a gentleman, and also romantic thats why i'm always nervous and im also worry and scared that are love wont last for ever but i have faith in me and in this relationship sometimes im nervous when you tell me you got a surprise for me i get excited trying to find out what is the surprise.

Confuse

2009-05-21T14:02:00.000-07:00

Right now i am so confuse i dont know what to think anymore all this presure is killing me to death oh my god! what should i do about it when i talk to you i dont know what to say cause im always confuse but still i dont know why im confuse? is it Because i love you? or is it Because i moved away? i just need somebody there for me like you and i dont know cause all this presure is killing me and im just confuse of everything what i want is that i dont want to think anymore ti'll i have someone to talk to.

I miss you

2009-05-21T13:33:00.000-07:00

When i saw you leave i didn't wanted you to leave cause i knew if you leave i will miss you so much that i will start to cry but now i know that you are now in a better place but somehow i wish you were here with me like old times I miss your hug's and a lot more things that i never knew i can feel i wish you didn't had to leave so early Because if you didn't had past away you will still be here with me telling me joke's and makeing me happy like you always did I miss you so much that sometimes and somehow those old days come's back to my head but it was sad to see you leave and i just wanted to let you know that i will always love you and i will always miss you.